Having a hard time just thinking about quitting smoking. I have 3 people in my life that support the idea of me quitting smoking. Not counting my doctor etc. I live with a smoker, my sister, and there is no intention on her part to ever quit and she tells me to quit at this time in my life is not a good idea. Have a lot going on. But I am trying to rise above. I will have my first coach call tomorrow, I am at least going to try. I decided I would go cold turkey but I am not sure if that is a good idea. Just have to wait and see.
Started walking and beginning exercises, so this should help motivate me to keep quitting. I think I am going to move my quit date. Not sure yet. Have to wait and see.
Sounds like a lot of excuses, but smoking is my best friend right now and my worst enemy. Just need to choose which one I want to associate with. Either way best friend entices me to keep smoking worst enemy entices me to keep smoking. I like coming here and airing out my feelings, helps me get focused back on my quit business. I tell myself no one can do it but me. I shall rise up and do it. I can do this.
Whoooey! Feel long winded tonight. I am getting my quit equipment ready. I went so far as to cut straws into cigarette size and put them in a cigarette pack. I tried it out and chewing on them does relieve some anxiety. I think it is a pretty cool idea, I like it. Making me a list of what I do each day and how I can take a bad and turn it into a good. Stop, deep breath, count to 3 and think before lighting up. Do I need this. NO I don't need it but I want it. So separate your needs from your wants. Which is more beneficial. I talk to myself a lot.
Anyway, that's where I am today, so hopefully I will be here tomorrow and a little further down my no smoking journey. I went with just a very few cigs yesterday and my I noticed right away how depressed I became because I hadn't had my daily fix quota. At least I am aware of what I am up against. Crying, moody, depressed...name it...amazing how a drug can control one's inner being. I just need to get past the first 48 hours....so I need to figure out where to go and what to do to keep myself from lighting up.
