Very gloomy day here in Arkansas. Light rain all day. I decided to get out for a bit because I have been alone in my apartment for 2 days now and the walls were starting to close in. I went shopping for bargains--one of my favorite activities. My last stop, I walked out of a shoe store and there was a young man "enjoying a smoke". I looked. I walked to my car and "looked again". I loaded my purchase in the trunk and a thought ran thru my mind - "Would he sell me one smoke for a buck or two?" Where the hell did this come from? I got in my car and drove home - all is well - Thank you all - many times the only thing that keeps me safe is the fear of having to confess - lol