Addiction Sucks

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This cigarette was smoked purely to relieve symptoms of nicotine withdrawal. Yes, it did its job, but it tasted, smelled and felt disgusting. I'm so grateful I'm not deluded into thinking I actually enjoy the act of inhaling toxic fumes into my lungs. I'm an addict, my brain has been rewired over 20 years of engaing in this activity to actually "need" nicotine molecules. 

I've used NRT in past quit attempts and they helped tremendously. It's usually during the last hours of the day, right before I go to bed that I feel the strongest urges despite the replacement. I have 19 more days to figure out how I am going to deal with these cravings.