Today is day 16. For the first time, I dreamed I smoked a cigarette last night. The worst part of the dream was having to admit it to you and reset my quit clock! I want to succeed! I'm going to keep my quit! I still have weak moments. I get through them a variety of ways.
Another new thing - I seem to have a lot of indigestion in the last week. Is this part of not smoking or is it too many wonderful foods at too many Christmas parties? Oh I miss the days of a cast-iron stomach and I could eat anything at any time.
I am trying to work in a little excercise each day - either a few minutes of strength training or a few minutes on a Nordic Track machine. I say a few minutes because my breathing is so bad and its been so long since I worked on these muscle groups that adding muscle pain to everything else seems like a really bad idea. I'm hoping to increase the duration as my quit progresses.
I have been really bad about drinking 64 oz of water a day. I've got to get back to it.
Today I will be attending a family reunion/gift exchange. It happens every year and this will be the first time I can remember that I haven't been smoking. I have never smoked at these events, but I would carry a piece of nicotine gum with me to take the edge off when it got too bad. I didn't want to be grouchy at a Christmas party! I'm not expecting it to be difficult to get through the party. Not stopping somewhere for one on the way home might be a trigger. I'm going to take some miniature candy canes with me - they seem to help in times of stress.
My youngest daughter got home yesterday to a Mom that isn't smoking. First time in her life. WOW - that is hard to admit knowing how bad second hand smoke is for children. Another first.
I told my daughter last night that I may get a thumb ring or an index finger ring to remind me of my quit when I get into NML. I think I would like to have "I don't do that anymore" inscribed on the inside. To others, it would just be jewelry, to me it would be my conscious.
Onward and upward. I don't do that anymore. I am making a choice for life. I'm on the Freedom train. All these phrases keep me going through the tough stuff.
