Day 13 was not bad. We had a luncheon at work and I didn't run out to smoke! I actually sat in the lunch room with all the others and enjoyed the social event! That is a first since they banned smoking in the building about 15 years ago. It was good.
Of course I don't ever have an all good day. The department gave our boss her present today. She laid it aside and then put it back under the tree. We were doing the Secret Santa exchange, so it would have been a perfect time for her to open hers. Because of the way she treats her people, it was hard to convince my co-workers to participate in getting her a gift. After her behavior today, I won't be able to convince them next year. Miserable people manage to make everyone around them miserable too.
Then, my husband informed me he will not be attending my family's gift exchange day this Saturday. He has to work on his truck. He is convinced that I'm out to get him now that I'm not smoking. I knew this was going to be the hard part for me. We were in a good spot and now we are going to have to work through a rough patch. I hate the fighting we have done in the past and I don't want it back. I fear, the only way to another good spot is a lot of yelling/screaming and broken possessions. I just don't want it. That is enough to make me want a smoke and to give in to kill myself with cigarettes. I think this falls under the "immediate gratification" category. I've got to think about this one carefully and try to figure out what to say and how to say it so we don't end up in arguments. There may not be a way though. sigh.
Fortunately, I can call both of my daughters and they can pick me up. Between them and you, I have a chance of keeping my quit!!!!!
