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Friday...and the beat goes on or is it the beatings going on?

elvan
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Going to bed…I am exhausted, the car decided to break down this afternoon and it looks like it is not going to be something simple or affordable, it’s horrifying.  It’s a Volvo, I am not sure how many we have owned but we have had quite a few...this is definitely the last one.  I have to be at work tomorrow and Enterprise was kind enough to rent us a car at the weekend rate of $9.99 a day…we had a long relationship with them because of our LAST Volvo. I did not care what the y rented us because I called really late and they were very busy since students were leaving and renting cars…the kindness was that they rented us a sport’s car, I, personally did not have ANY preference but the rate would have been higher.  Our last Volvo broke down in Feb of 2013 and we rented cars every weekend to do errands until July of 2013 when we got this one which needed $1500 in repairs that November and four new tires and then it broke down on the way to the airport on Christmas Day last year…our daughter was leaving for Korea.  The second set of repairs was not charged for because they happened since the first repair job was not complete.  This car and I do not have a warm and fuzzy relationship.  I have not been comfortable driving in a very long time because of my shoulder and now I am not driving at all.  I have been smelling hot oil for a few days and I had my husband take the car in to the repair shop because of some blinking light…the mechanic said it was most likely transmission related and was one of two parts but he was not sure which one…today, it started actually leaking oil.  I have a ride to and from work so that’s my one day at a time…I am exhausted though.  I tried to shop today so I could send something to my grandchildren and my oldest daughter and son in law but I was uninspired. I need to get inspired really fast. 

I hope everyone has a wonderful evening and a great weekend, I will likely pass out after working tomorrow, I am not much of a morning person so this will be a challenge and a half.  I have to get up at least two hours before I have to be there so I can get my joints to function and not look like the tin man looking for oil in the morning.

I must admit that I find it rather amusing to go down to the snack bar in the morning to get coffee and watch the smokers going out into the freezing cold to get their “fix”…I am so grateful that I am not there with them.  There but for the grace of God…

Love to all.

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.