Happy, Happy Thanksgiving to all!
This is the beginning of my second season of Winter Holidays. Wow!
Today I had a huge lunch at the Melting Pot with my son. He got an extra long pass in honor of the holiday. We went all out since he had had institutional food for six long months. A four course fondue meal.
I am 438 days smoke free, feeling great - and then WHAM - with an enormously full belly for the first time since forever (I started my weight loss/fitness journey earlier this year) the smallest, vaugest passing thought that my overly full tummy would feel better if I had a smoke. WHAT? I mean What the WHAT? Could it have been a sense memory from being over full and passing someone smoking in the parking lot? Maybe.
I never actually thought of smoking or craved or any of that. I was just surprised that after so much time it hit out of the blue. But Dale warned me about this last year.
Please go read everything on Dale's page. (Jonescarp aka Dale). He knows what he is talking about.
Enjoy Thanksgiving tomorrow, and know that you are on the way to being an EX.
In other news - I softened my heart and forgave my half sister and went to her house tonight. It has been almost a year since we had a falling out. The Lord works in amazing ways so that I was able to be with her when I called our brother and learned that their dad, my bio-dad, is in very bad shape. Probably in emergency surgery right now. I have spoken to him but never met him and didn't put much effort into building a relationship. I am trying to decide how I feel about all of this but glad to be able to support my half sister and my brother from afar. I wish I was closer for my brother - but I can just pray for God's had to support them all in this time.
Nothing can make me smoke - not a huge dinner, not bad news, not family fights.
~Lisa
