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Made it through another day

elvan
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Spent most of the day with the insurance adjuster and going in and out of the house.  I cannot stand going into the master bedroom where my “babies” died, I swear I can FEEL the fear in there.  It brought me to my knees both times I have been in there.  I know I will never get over losing them…no matter what, I will never completely recover from this but I will be different and maybe better.  I wrote that 10 month blog on the day of the fire and maybe I offended a camel.

I have so many clothing donations that I am astounded and the money that was raised by people on EX, you cannot imagine what it means to me…I have been told not to say thank you but that’s impossible.

The insurance company says we have to inventory every room and TRY to put values on items…starting with the most expensive.  We need to provide all of the information in five business days.  I had some antiques that were mine and I am horrified that I lost all of my mother’s items but they were things…so to speak. They just meant a great deal to me…more than I can possibly explain. I am learning that the things that cannot be replaced are not going to kill me. It sounds like we are going to have to rebuild on the same lot but we can build a much smaller house. I am wearing a respirator to go into the house and I cannot stay inside for long…even with the respirator.  I need to shower now and go to bed, I am way past the point when I should have been in bed and my poor old body is screaming at me.  Thank you all for letting me vent here.

I finally spoke to my youngest daughter and I think she is alright…she does not want anything dry cleaned or washed or attempted to save…she just wants her comforter and her duvet cover which I believe are untouched. She is entering her busiest time of year so she will not be able to contact me often but talking to her tonight was amazing and my oldest daughter and granddaughter are both HERE with me now.

I love each of you!

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.