I think most of us start reflecting on our past nearer to the holidays and festivities , it's just something we as humans do, I guess!
Some of those thoughts are nice and heartwarming and some are more sad and draining!!
Last night , I was hit by certain parts of my past that I really do try and forget and do not really try and remember because to put it mildly "it breaks my heart " everytime !
As I said many times before this journey is teaching me everyday of how many minutes of the day I simply ignored "Me and my feelings ", how I chose to bury those hard emotions and not face them!
I know why I did this, cause it wasn't all my doing and I nedeed a hand to deal with them but never got the help I nedeed, not because the person did not want to help but because they did not want to deal with that (lots of ppl do not deal with the emotions of life and that's a fact).
However I'm coming to understand that in order for me to move even further in life I should let those feelings and emotions through with or without help, it doesn't matter anymore if I'm going to deal with them by myself , what matters is that I am aknowledging their presence and facing them instead of hiding from them!!
Tears are good , they cleanse our soul!
Today I feel better and I know that if I was still hiding behind the smoke my heart would've hurt more than it is , this journey is our healing process and we should really accept the humps and bumps along the way-It's better to deal with things than bury them, for they eventually comeback to the surface again.
I choose to be strong even with my tearful eyes and a broken heart but I refuse to hide !
Enjoy your day dear friends and all the best 🙂
Linda
