Good morning EX family!!!
I am not here enough & my heart misses it so very much. If you are new here or struggling please reach out to someone or several people & make friends. My EX friends got me through the challenging moments because my friends & family in my regular life just had heard it all before for a very long time!!! My EX friends believed in me no matter what!
I came very close to smoking not long ago. I came home from a party where I drank entirely too much alcohol as we had all planned taxis for the evening to NOT drink & drive. This apparently made us drink much more than usual!!! I got home alone & had a powerful urge to smoke out of nowhere. Hadn’t crossed my mind since I don’t remember when. Suddenly I remembered in my ‘vintage everything’ collection I had a pack of unopened ‘Maple Cigarettes’ from the 1930s!!!!!!!!!! My addict brain told me that there were no chemicals in them so just ONE would be ok. REALLY TEDDY???!!! YES. I opened the pack & it was loose tobacco not cigarettes. Foiled! I threw it away & went to take a long look in the mirror to have a talk with me & cried. It was 2am & I remembered all the nights I would be on EX that late & Dale would still be up in California to talk to online. I remembered that Tommy would not care if I emergency called him anytime. I came so close folks. If they had been cigarettes would I have smoked??? I’ll never know. All I know for sure is that I didn’t smoke. I hadn’t been on the site for a while so I jumped on the next day & spent hours talking to new people & saying hello to friends. Never Ever Forget. The last time I had quit for 10 years & after ‘just one’ I smoked again for 8 years.
My life is amazing now or should I say I appreciate how amazing life has always been. The changes have been mostly on the inside. This freedom is so precious to me. This is a life or death decision & needs tending.
For today I celebrate and thank God and you all. Much love!
teddyjoy 2 years free
