I slept a lot today again but it was definitely less of the exhuasted sleep and more of the "Hey, I can relax!" sleep! No more stressing about whether I buy another box of cigarettes! No more cleaning up ashed and yellow ick- although there is still plenty to find in the apartment!
Now my concern is I can smell things! The main reason I seem to return to smoking is smell! As a little kid I could smell all kinds of things and usually get really sick as a result and that was before I lived in a crowded city! Smoking obviously dulled my sense of smell but today I noticed the odors and aromas coming back. <GAG>! This is the really difficult part for me. And no, I don't like the smells of artificial room deodorizers! I like the smell of the woods. The smell of balsam, pine trees, the ocean, sweet feed and hay and leather, the scent of grass right after a spring shower...... but definitely not the kinds of scents I'm going to meet up with in the middle of Philadelphia!
But being real, I know picking up a cigarette doesn't immediately remove the odors I may encounter. I'm BSing myself. Staying quit will let me afford trips to places with those wonderful odors! And, I moved to Philly 5 years ago, it may well be time to move on again to a place where I can smell a fireplace and warm bread from the oven..... All without cigarttes!
