I am confident about my quit and thought I was beyond any dangers of relapse, but tonight I had something happen that took me to the edge of smoking again.
I recieved the following message on my facebook page: "Are you the same Joe Monile that served with the 173rd Airborne in AnKhe Vietnam" It caught me off guard., and I cant describe everything that I was feeling but it definetely had an shook me.
I didnt answer the message, and at that point and started drinking, (Big Mistake) It took me back to another time. I became the person I was back then, I hate that person. And at that moment I wanted to smoke.....not just smoke, but like Chesterfield Kings, Pall Malls, or Lucky Strike type smoking.
Anyway I didnt smoke, I am mad at myself that I didnt practice what preach and that is to come here and post when your quit is is danger.
I finally answered the message and it turned out that it was the wife of one of my best friends in Vietnam. And she said that she had been searching for me for quite a while... I called him and we talked for hours.
It was over 40 years ago that we were together, and I still cant express all that I felt. I told him that we were supposed to be tough guys and not supposed to cry. He said "F It" Under the circumstances, I coudnt have put it more eloquently.
My Quit is in tack
