Well, here it is, the big 1-0... Yep, ten days away from my quit. I don't really know how I am feeling about it. Excited. Determined. Scared.
Someone once said to me, "Never count the days," but I honestly think that counting down has been so very beneficial for me. Because I tracked cigarettes for two days on here, and still track them in a folder I have created for when I am not around a pc. I learned when I fall prey to that ugly nicotiene monster. So, the quest is going to have a lot of hills, I know this.
I also now I have something I have never had before on a quest, YOU and a MAP. Map because, I have never really been on a quest, but I don't want to call this a journey. I want to make it sound fun, even though I know it will have its moments where it is anything BUT fun.
I feel as if I now have armour, and a shield. I just now have to find a lance, sword, steed ect... Okay, I'm not that big into quests.. I'm not THAT much of a finatic... I wish I were, but I'm just a plain Jane trying to beef up my quit and use that "Magic Nation" that lives inside to help shield me from the every day mundane.
One of the biggest things for me, now before I say this, I am not a crazy angry person. Though I do have my moments, but I have to find an outlet for da-da-ta-da!!! Pissy moments, because, man I sure can be a bit of an *itch from time to time. I HAVE to find a way to curve that crazy she devil inside...
So, WHEN I feel like I have found a way for me to get over THAT hump, I will have my lance..
My sword, is when I find a way to feel like I am able to be around those who smoke, ya know.. Battling the urge.
Then, my steed it comes in time... Like after my first 175 days.. That is when I get my beautiful steed.
Three steps, two hands, one mind and ALL OF YOU!
My reward? At the six month marker, I will have PRIDE. Pride in knowing that all the craziness has its just reward...
So, here's to the final count-down. Cheers!!!
