13 days to quit

[andreakay]

I am having a really emotional day today and even so have only had three cigarettes so far.

Which is quite astounding to me because I feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest. Normally, that would send me on a self destruct mission and partake in my suicide on the installment plan.

Today, I just really don't even give a shit. About anything. I know that this has a lot to do with the addiction. But getting through it is a little "ify" for me right at this moment.

Ugh, I gotta go find my Bible and try to get out of this funk so that I can take on my quitting quest with the same bravado I had yesterday.

I don't know if I will be back on today or not, probably so, because I tend to live here now..

Have a wonderful day and CONGRATULATIONS to everyone celebrating mile stones, no matter how great or small...