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For My Kids

karla14
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Today is the day I'm declaring as my quit day.  I've  been fooling myself for awhile now thinking I just have an occasional habit.  Truth is I've been smoking a few cigarettes nearly every day or every other day.

My dad smoked when I was little and I hated it.  I would stick my head out the window or put a napkin over my mouth because I hated the way it smelled.  It really bothered me.  Then in 8th or 9th grade I tried it.  Smoked off and on through college.  Then I "mostly" quit during my twenties and early thirties.  Then in my mid-thirties I started smoking more.  Now here I am in my early forties smoking even more.

My son caught me smoking a few months ago and it destroyed him.  He cried and said "I don't want you to die"  This was such an awful situation.  Still tear up when I think of how it affected him.  This prevented me from smoking for two weeks then after a glass of wine (few glasses of wine) the 'occasional' habit leered its ugly head again.  

I don't want to put my son through what I went through w/my dad.  My dad still smokes and will die an early death because of it. 

Trying to stay positive but feeling depressed I am where I am w/this smoking thing.

Today is day one.  Love my kids more than smoking.  Have got to kick this thing.
 

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