I have 15 days until my quit date. I did really good yesterday/today. As I was tracking what I was smoking, I kept thinking, HOLY CRAP! Like a chimney!!
I opened a pack of cigarettes at 6 yesterday morning and I had cigarettes in that same pack until noon today. Which for me is AMAZING!
Today though, I have had an off day and I am sitting here, close to tears thinking, what the bloody hell am I going to do if I have quit and have a day like this? I know I will days like today, it is inevitable, right? So, here I sit, thinking, oh my gosh... Will I be wasting my time in trying to quit? Will I be one of those people who try and fail yet again, for the hundredth time??
What then? What will I do when I get dis-heartened by the possibility of a smoke or ten after say 24 hours of not smoking... Yes, I am a creature of habit and I know that... That is what is weighing me down so much today. The thought of being a quitter of quitting...
Uggh.
So, I have read through some of the blogs on here and most of you guys have more than a year of non-smoking to back you up, I need to know, because I am ready to quit, but scared to death of doing so.. Is this normal? Should I seek professional psychiatric help?
(Maybe an English teacher for the words I have misspelled and other hilarious grammar mistakes.)
I don't see any new-bys on here other than myself. Is there a sperate place that they go? Or am I just not looking at enough blogs?
I promise my next blog will be a little more on one track and will there..
I'm just afraid underneath all this excitement!
