My Name is Amy,
I am 52 years old and i have been smoking for over 30 years, I was never a heavy smoker, maybe social 1 to 2 cigarrents once in a while, but four months ago, the love of my life and I separated, and I felt devastated, so I started smoking more than ever sometimes a pack a day, It felt good, and I relaxed. But then, I started having issues breathing, I work out and run, so it started impacting my life style. I smelled terrible and I do not like it.
Last night, I finally realized that I should not penalized my life for the lost of my love as It feel now it is his loss and I will be fine, so This morning, I decided to quit smoking, I know it will be difficult, But I made a pack with myself, I love me, and I need to show me, that I can control my nicottin craving as much as control not missing him. It will be hard as I am trying to fight two strong feelings within. BUT I feel strong today. I just joined this group because I will need support. I do not know anyone that smokes and I feel ashamed to even tell my friends that I do. It has been my hidden secret, (or maybe they know, Ja ja, fooling myself) either case. I will need support from people that understand what it takes to quit and take it one day at a time.
Thanks to all in the community that allows me be part of it.
Amy
