Monday: Labor Day 9/1
(11:30AM) *20 more days to go! It is the (MORNING) and the drug disease is ever so strong. Just (WOKE UP) and craving that dirty, filthy, no-good DEATH STICK!
*Last night I smoked a lot! I was (DRINKING) and getting drunk. Wanted those cigarettes that go along w/ (SOCIAL OCCASIONS), (DRINKING), (FEELINGS OF NERVOUSNESS FROM BEING AT A SOCIAL EVENT), (BOREDOM) No Bueno!!!!!
(1:30PM) *Finished eating at FujiIchiban. Felt full and satisfied but had a "hunger" for "something else"! There was a VOID! Like a hole you could never fill. It's those damn TOXIC DEATH STICKS. (AFTER A GOOD MEAL), those TOXIC DEATH STICKS give the illusion (a very cunning and strong one) that you'll feel "extremely relaxed and more satisfied w/ that cigarette". This can never be more WRONG and UNTRUE!!! Look at non-smokers, they don't have that "drug-addict" ITCH to smoke after a good meal. Only smokers can never feel truly content. And it's all caused by those TOXIC DEATH STICKS!
(3:00PM) *"The Power of The Cigarrette" - I don't know where this one came from...I guess it could be (BOREDOM), (FEELINGS OF ANXIOUSNESS), (AFTER HAVING SOME FUN). Goes to show the cunningness/sneakyness of MY ADDICTION. This one is the trigger to lookout for b/c it sneaks up on you when you least expect it and it comes out of nowhere!
(6:00PM) *(DRIVING)....another trigger to smoking TOXIC DEATH STICKS. On my way to Ians drum class. Hope I get well and relieved from my DISEASE/SICKNESS/ADDICTION!
(7:00pm) *(HANGING OUT W/ FRIENDS WHO SMOKE) Smokers are triggers too! Learn how to JUST SAY "NO"! Tell them "I don't feel I have to Smoke"!