So by next week at this time, i know i'll be craving a cigarette. It will be my first day as a non-smoker in two years. I'm feeling rather ambivalent. i guess it helped that i went to the dr this morning and he asked me how i was doing with quitting smoking. I just hung my head in shame. That's what i feel every time i pick up a cigarette... Ashamed... embarrassed. Why can't i just put them down and not 'need' them? It would be real easy to quit. I feel sorry for all the teenagers who start smoking for whatever reasons, not realizing this will follow you throughout the rest of your life unless you do something. That's what happened to me... just a stupid and curious teenager and now this. God help me through this!
