Making The Choice

[JRC]

Yesterday,Storm in his wonderful blog had two sentences that really resonated with me. "Wake up each morning and choose to not smoke again that day.Because you do have a choice." This is what I am telling myself in the morning when I wake up and during the day when things get rough. It feels so good to have control.

I am connected now with counseling and have seen my primary physician. He was wonderful and didn't discount what I was feeling and possibly why. He listened and acted on what I was telling him.

Not having Abbie is  very difficult. I remember blurting out after she was put to sleep "I'm never having another dog. It is too painful!" Well, we have an application in to a Beagle rescue and have started the process. Just taking it step by step. I am hoping the little female beagle that I was drawn to, they will find her a good fit for us. Her owners moved and left her in a crate at the house they moved from. I sure hope they were charged with animal cruelty.

Polly the cat is getting fat!! Made the mistake of giving her some canned food. For the first week after Abbie died, she would look around for her.Slowly cutting down on the canned food.

I've been kind of quiet, but do come here often during the day. Haven't felt too much like talking. I am in awe of the committment and resolve I see here.

Today, as with everyday, I do have a choice. I choose freedom.