Thank you everybody for the nice messages of encouragement, they really help!
So far I can say something for sure - Zyban works - I don't know why it didn't work the first time I tried it, maybe I didn't take it enough days to reach steady-state, maybe my metabolism was different - faster and I ate it up too soon - I tend to be a high metabolizer of most drugs due to lifetime addictions - to smoking and coffee.
But this time it works and I will finally quit smoking - hopefully for good 🙂
I did read 3/4th of Allen Carr's book - I bought it the day after I bought my Zyban - it not really for me, I already knew everything he says there - I am a 25 yrs+ smoker who quit once cold turkey in a program of psychological counseling - they told me all that and more in the program. It true he drives it in so many times he is good at making you think about it and he does identify well the 2 feelings - the 2 monsters - 1 is the addiction to nicotine - he calls it the little one, I dont think it so little, the other is the fear you can't live without smoking - That is the bigger one, he is right 🙂
I can tell you for me, Zyban kills the monsters - both, completely - no cravings and no anxiety - true it makes me feel a bit 'zoned out' too - but I will put up with that feeling because for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE after 20 (except that year I quit), I don't want to smoke, I dont NEED to smoke - it awesome 🙂
Basically the ecig is there to take care of that hand-to-mouth thing and to give me something to do on long evenings when I used to smoke 1 pack+ and now I don't know what to do with myself.
Also to those that feel the ecig isn't a good NRT - it is the ultimate NRT - remember I tried it once 1 yr ago so I know a lot about it, I just didnt like it enough to quit switching to it. You can vary the nicotine content from 0 to 36 mg - and while now I using low-nicotine juice - because I have tons of it - I do plan to switch to 0 nicotine juice in my 2nd month of Zyban to make sure I off nicotine before I off of Zyban.
And THE question - what the heck do non-smokers do if they don't smoke lol - I don't remember - and wouldnt apply anyways - what I did with me at 19 before I started smoking.
Also I dont remember what I did that 1 yr I quit - I think I blocked the memories because they were traumatic lol. All I remember is 2 things: 1 that I would cry every morning for weeks to months because I lost my best friend and my life was pointless and 2 - which I use - that I took up a habit from my asian friends - I'd make a tea after a meal instead of having a cig - that a good thing, gives you something to do, and tea cant be bad for you 🙂
