I have been smoke free for 9.5 months. Sunday, during a full blown panic attack I bought a pack of cigs and smoked ONE.
It hurt my throat, tasted terrible, and didn't help the way it used to, you know? I immediately regretted it and tossed the pack out of the window. I didn't want to bring it home…to what…finish the pack?? I know I might as well have tossed the cash out of the window. I regret that as well.
I realized that I would have to work at this point to get addicted again. That's not work I'm willing to do. However, I was so disappointed in myself that I deleted my quitting smoking app that has been keeping track for me all this time. Should I keep the app and start it over or should I reset the date to my original quit date (Oct 13, 2013) and just move on?
I came so far...how could I be so stupid?
