What spurs on this 3rd writing of the day.....is how important it is to never, ever give up on trying to achieve our goals....
I can't count how many times I have quit smoking......but if I gave up trying when I fell, if I didn't attempt to climb back up, and do it again, and again, and again.....then the goal of quitting would just be history, some kind of thing I tried once or twice in my past.....nothing to do with today....
So before beating myself up for having to try again (and believe me, it is hard not to beat myself up over this) BUT I look at the other option.....and all of a sudden I can see clearer, that the shame is not that I couldn't achieve freedom in my first, second,.....10th try.....the shame would be if I gave up trying....
That would surely be ashame....that would be an end to my dream of freedom, my hopes of being healthier, not smelling like cigarettes....this would be a bigger blow to my self-esteem than trying and falling, and repeating the effort could ever be....
I would have to now lie to myself and say "yeah, well I don't want to quit....that's why I smoke"; That would be a complete lie!!!
There is an increased chance of success for those who never give up.....I promise to never give-up, as tiring as that can be.....as silly as I may appear to some, I don't care----I will keep trying.....
I promise this to myself.....and I hope all who feel beat-up keep trying.....the prize is still available.....we just have to keep reaching.....
The EX community will carry you when u are tired, but it is our personal job to never give up trying.....it is impossible to stay down, if we keep getting back up!
Peace and Hugs : )
