I am super vulnerable right now. Usually, as now, I am running low on cigs and I get nervous (will I have money for more, can I get to the store). Shawn wrote and helped a lot. I cannot have more when I run out. The countdown is scaring me. Four days left. Please write something about yourself , your dog , anything to get my mind off of this selfish beast inside me. Also, my weekend reading was frightening. I saw that I am still in danger of horrible disease even after I quit. The demons said 'so why quit'. But, i will and they'll be very unhappy. Won't they.
