WHY?

[linda.mustafa]

After all this time, after all the reading , after daily persevering , after daily distractions, after daily changing the mindset to a more positive one I go and do the stupid stupid stupid thing-purchase a pack of 10 Marlboro Red cigarettes-I have been struggling lately even more than before ,  I do have cravings and urges daily and you would think Im used to them by now but lately I feel somewhat tired of them!

I still can't believe I went to the shop, mind you went in and out few times before buying them and came home!

The other thing I did was I started a conversation with my son about how I'm still feeling vulnerable and that I might go back to smoking again-His reaction spoke volumes , he wasn't having any of it , he said "If success was easy everybody will do it" and "why why do you want to give up now? He made me listen to some motivational videos, they are really good!

It breaks my heart to ever think of smoking again , I'm looking up and asking for more strength to beat this nasty nasty nasty addiction !!!

What else can I say, I really am holding on, I'm exhausted 😞

Please forgive me , I don't want to discourage any of you, it's just my way of communicating today with you guys!

All the best:)