Why?

[aga3]

Why did I ever started smoking? If I would knew that I would get hooked I would never try that first cigarettes. I feel sad and scared of that day when I will smoke my last cigarette. I am crying right now because I do and want to stop smoking once and for all. This time I have to do it for good. I can't look at cigarettes anymore and I can't stand them, but the moment I say I don't want to smoke I feel like I will miss out on something...I want to be non-smoker