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meganrose1011
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So this morning between clients (I am a CNA and do in home care, so drive from person to person throughout the day) I went to a gas station to refill my coffee. During the checkout process, out of habit, I asked for a pack of smokes. Paid for them and left. Got in my car, kicking myself in the butt!  $8.00 just wasted! Immediately I called and talked to my dad, explaining what happened and that because I had them on me it was temporarily enticing and needed a distraction. So he talked to me on the phone for about 10 mins, reminding me not to beat myself up over it, old habits die hard, and that was IS important is that I DONT SMOKE ANY OF THEM. Which I did not do! I actually broke every single one of them in half and through them away! Even though Im 3 days smoke free now, and have NO DESIRE to smoke them, it was still hard to throw them away! I though to myself "Well I will just smoke this pack up THEN quit again because otherwise Im wasting money by just throwing them away" but then I also thought "Either way, if I smoke them or not, it's still a waste of money"
KInd of like a little devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other, battling with myself for a few minutes. The angel part one and they are now gone!
Just funny to me how that happened. It wasnt as if I had a stressful morning, and was dying for one and a craving hit me so hard. It was simply, a habit, one that needs to be broken! Maybe I should avoid gas stations for a little while, does anyone else find themselves avoiding gas stations in fear of caving and buying smokes?

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