I have had a really tough day, physical pain was at its peak and my emotions have been all over the place. I have a daughter teaching in South Korea and every time I see the people waiting for their kids on that ferry, I lose it. The school where they were from is right near where my daughter is and she had a friend teaching there last year. She knows many people who are connected to those students who were lost. I cannot seem to hold back my tears. I also got really, really angry today, it was a combination of things and my intolerance of people...some of whom you must admit are stupid. I do not DO stupid. I got so angry that, for the first time in a very long time, I wanted a cigarette so badly that I can honestly say it "hurt." I knew it wouldn't resolve the issue(s) but I thought it might defuse my anger before I said or did something that I could not make better. I swear this is like PMS on steroids and I am postmenopausal. This is such a roller coaster and here I go again, the tears are blurring my eyes and I can't even type. I think I need to try to sleep, maybe some tranquil dreams will come and offer me some peace. I sure could use some. I have had two basically sleepless nights and my pain just will not let go when I am this tired and the weather is so strangely unpredictable. Okay, pity party over, time for bed. Love to all of you, oh dear God, will someone dry off my keyboard?
