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385 days...said with clenched teeth

Jules7
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Yes I am pissy this morning. I have been thinking about, or joking about, smoking for a few days. Word of caution - do NOT joke about smoking. Holidays tend to mean family and stress or triggers or memories of smoking for me. There are a lot of good blogs about making it through a holiday on here but somehow I didn't count Easter. I was surprised that stores were closed yesterday. Is it just that I live in the bible belt? 

Anyway, I digress. I am pissy. I spent too many hours caring for my Alzheimer's father and added in my pain in the ass aging mother yesterday and went to sleep feeling emotionally drained. Started today listening to my best friend complain about a breakup and reading an email from my mother who is mad at me for something her confused brain made up and didn't actually happen. Got on the road to drivers acting all kinds of crazy and just had the overwhelming desire to smoke. Did I? NO!

I made it safely to work although I am bummed to be feeling this intensity at this point in my quit. I am well aware smoking will not solve any of this stuff. I have no intention of smoking. It helps to read the blogs of the newly quit since I don't want to feel that again. All my stress currently is just life doing life stuff. Imagine how much worse I would feel if I had the physical symptoms of nicotine withdrawal? That would be SO much worse.

So I am going to put my big girl panties on and immerse myself in work and get over it already. Happy Monday All!

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