Hi all!
I am still smoke free - just haven't been on in a bit.
I got my son some help in the form of BACA - Bikers Against Child Abuse - he is feeling a little more protected and strong. There are some other things brewing in his situation but I don't have details to share yet. We still need prayers.
During Spring break my parents were going to take the kids for a few days to save me on child care expenses - but the week befor Mom was admitted to the hospital with very low pulse ox - swollen fett, lots of pain. She was in for a few days and now, as expected is on oxygen 24/7, Dad says the doc got in her face and really put it out there - if she doesn't stop smoking he will see her more and more oftern - and he can make her comfortable in the short term, but he lungs are nealy gone and she will die soon. I believe she has been on the patch since then - so almost a month. Dad says she found a couple of cigarettes and smoked part of one but said it tasted awful. Maybe this is the quit!?!
I happily passed the 7 month smoke free mark at the beginning of the week. I have just not smoked every single day for 218 days in a row. Wow.
IT's been a stressful week, and before a big appointment on Thursday morning I had a smoking dream. I haven't had one of those in a long time. I was at my parents' house - and hiding in the garage to smoke. I'm not sure why I was hiding. As dreams make their own reality - the garage had a window that isn't there, and out the window was a former coworker - who dies last year from cancer even though I don't believe she was a smoker. It was after seeing her that I woke up. I didn't crave or remember fondly ro anything - I just don't have any idea where it came from other than being stressed and talking to my dad about mom and how as long as she feels like she is missing something and/or still thinks that smoking relaxes her (they had an argumnent and she threatened to go get a pack)...
Anyway - I'm doing well! Working out almost every day - though I stopped losing weight. Plateau or muscle gain - I'm still working at it.
I hope you all are well. I don't mean to be gone so long. The Bikers did jumping jacks in the living room and the next day that computer no longer worked - still waiting to get it fixed, and the other computer is in the wee one's room (we share) so I don't get on as much so as not to wake her.
Hugs to all.
Eli
