today was kind of rough dont know why but i had fantasies today of buying a pack of cigarettes.... i didnt of course ...but it bothers me that the thought crossed my mind....
i have been having chest pains lately and muscle spasms in my back so maybe it has something to do with my bronchitis...something like COPD... i have a doctor appt on wednesday so ill find out then,,..
im really nervous though i havent been to a doctor in about 10 years...so i guess its time..wish me luck