I go from feeling like nicotine has nothing to throw at me that I can't handle -- to -- feeling like I hope it doesn't show its face, I might give in...
We went out to dinner for our 21st anniversary....really nice...
I ordered a Pepsi, and I could feel him just staring at me instead of ordering his drink....
Althou we rarely drink, it is our anniversary....but to be honest, I had no clue what that might do to my quit...I was basically to afraid to drink, as silly as that may sound...
Dinner: Chicken Marsala (wine sauce) -- Desert: rum cake ....
Well, after we got in the car....it came over me STRONG....I SO wanted a cigarette....more than one!!
Yup, still very fragile....can't even have alcohol in my food yet...lol
As I type this, I still want one : (
No, No, No nicotine....I still plan on winning....just don't feel so strong right now.
End result: great time; no alcohol; no smoking; but seriously want one.....pls let this pass!!
