I was MIA for the last several days. Sorry 'bout that. I went to go visit my grandmother in California. I got back late Monday night, after midnight, and then I've been keeping busy with...well, with catching up on sleep and my "stories" and work. And even before that, I was just coming here enough to post a few comments, say "hiya," to my friends, and exist enough for people not to worry.
I haven't been back to the office yet. I took yesterday off so I wouldn't have to get up early after getting in so late, and then today was a snow day! It's just as well. I could use about 200 more of them, really. Things got really bad here really fast. Truly, within a month, everything changed, and I don't think there's any getting back what I had at this job. We have a new boss, so maybe things will improve, especially since he seems very nice and normal, so I reserve the right to change my mind, but at this point, my plan is to...
go home.
I have to wait a little while, because my tenants' lease started, ahem, this month, but soon enough, I'll be back in Virginia. Worse comes to worst, we put our stuff in storage and rent a room for a few months, no biggie. But this has proven to have been...not a big mistake. It was a good opportunity, and I've gotten a lot out of it, but at this point, the opportunity isn't worth it. Again, I reserve the right to change my mind, but right now, I can't wait. I fantasize about my house, my grocery store, my gym, my vet, my trivia team, my street, my diner, my friends...it keeps me going when things get tough, which is often right now.
The not-smoking thing has been a tiny struggle for the last since-this-started. One of my big triggers in the past was work stress, and not just any work stress, but work stress that resembles the stress I'm going through right now. So I'm not craving per se, but the memories are still there, lurking. I remember, though, that I hated that I gave up a quit because of a boss, and that it's not just one that I'll have, but a terrible relapse that leads to self-loathing and humiliation, and that I'm in a place I never smoked before, so I have no real habit attached, and so I dismiss it pretty quickly, but I do have the memories still haunting me a bit.
So there it is. I miss you guys, and hope everyone is well!
