Well here I am 553 days doing ok. Been having a stressful time lately with everything and taking some time off of work and taking time to take care of me. Now my dr isn't sure if I have depression or I am bipolar so now I am now leaning more towards bipolar. My workplace can be very stressful I know whos isn't. But the management is the problem I am having it is like talking to a wall with everyone of them. I get so aggravated and feel like I am screaming and no one hears me. With my episode I had my dr wanted to hospitaize me but no beds so I opted for Partial kind of the same but you get to go home. I Love it and have been there before and they give you the coping skills you just have to remember them and use them everyday. Did have a couple days in there where I wanted to buy a pack of cigarettes but I fought off the urge and I knew that wasn't the cure to my stress. Trying a knew med for the anxiety and it is helping but I know just relying on my meds is not going to work. I have to do the work to get better and this time I am willing to do that. I have been playing this game since I was 12 and I am beginning to win if I fight. This time I am not going down my illness is. We are just going to have to learn to live with each other and I am the boss. I am hopeful and I feel good. I hope everyone has a beautiful day and if things are going bad for you they will get better I promise. 🙂 Jen
