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One Year Done

Nyima_1.6.13
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  To those of you who don't know me, I smoked a pack or two a day for over 44 + years. When I came here, I wasn't at all convinced that I could quit. I had spent a year "getting ready" to quit (that's code for making excuses to continue); I had read 'Easy Way' about 10 times over the past 20 years; when Zyban came on the market, I took it for 2 months but didn't quit for even 24 hour; I stopped once for 5 months due to a horrible lung infection but started again without giving it a second thought! In other words, I had been thinking about quitting for a very long time! Coming here, asking for help and listening to what was said helped me get it done! I owe a huge debt of gratitude to the folks here! Words will never truly convey my thanks to all those who have supported, encouraged and educated me on my journey....but here I go! 
  Thanks for never wavering in your belief that I could do it when I felt sure I would fail.
  Thanks for being here in the middle of the night when I didn't sleep for three weeks.
  Thanks for educating me on addiction and soothing me when my "perfectly normal" withdrawal symptoms, feelings and run away train emotions took me to crazy town!
  Thanks for saying things about a thousand times and in a thousand different ways so that I could finally hear it. Thanks for the hard, straight advice as well as the warm encouragement.
  Thanks for convincing me that you were speaking the truth and my own addictive thoughts were the lies. Thanks for understanding when I thought I had it all figured out on Monday and then came here whining and crying about how much "I missed my friend" on Tuesday.
  Thanks for convincing me to stay when I wanted to leave.
  Thanks for tolerating months of my 'unhappy quitter' attitude and not saying "we told you so" when I finally figured it out.
  Thanks for putting up with my temper tantrums and judgmental stance about Ecigs!
  Thanks for supporting me in getting back to my yoga, meditation and mindfulness practices.
  Thanks for greeting me with open arms when I return after focusing on my 3D life and spending little time writing here in the cyber world. 
  I made a promise that if I ever felt I was going to make the choice to light up I would come here first. That simple promise has saved me on about a thousand occasions. Sometimes I came yelling for help; sometimes I came and asked questions; sometimes I came and spent time commenting; sometimes it was enough to just read the words of others and get a quick reminder that my family is here if I need them; sometimes reading the words of those who are struggling at the beginning of their quit reminds me why I will never go back and sometimes seeing all the beautiful graphics and messages that people send gives me strength when I let years of addictive thinking creep in. So THANK YOU everyone for helping me get here! I am extremely proud of our strength and our community.  
   
  NanaWendy and Freeneasy....thanks for waiting by the door open 😉
   
   
   
   
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