...but can I tell you first how much I WANT to write a blog a bout how proud I am on Day 5? I just feel like I'm relying too much on willpower and on faking it until I make it. I actually have a pretty hard time admitting vulnerability. I can share backstory with complete strangers...I'm totally an extrovert...but saying I's struggling is hard for me.
I had a pretty overwhelming day. I met a few more of my kids for this next school year, and it's going to be a doozy...lol. Let me just say for the record, I ADORE all children. I really, really do. But I had an incredibly advanced class last year...only sixteen children, all 4 year-olds...several of whom I had taught for two years. This year I'm looking at a class of twenty-four 3 and 4 year-olds (a mixed-level class is much harder to make relevant for all of the children in it), and I feel a bit rusty with those beautiful, dump-everything-on-the-floor-cause-I've-got-to-EXPLORE 3 year-olds. I also had my preteen daughter's orientation for middle school today and somehow offended her because I COMPLIMENTED her on her own decision to change her outfit from an ultra-coordinated neon and zebra-striped type outfit to a pair of jean shorts and a tee shirt. Psssht. Tweens. lol And I had a conversation with the Vice-Principal at this same school about a problem with my son's schedule (which was THEIR mistake), in which she was slightly rude and then condescending once she realized I also worked for the district but "do daycare." Ugh. The easiest way to piss me off is to tell me it's not really "teaching" to work in early childhood education. Whatever. GAH. No excuses! Just venting......
BUT...
And this is a big but...
I came here, after slogging through errands after work (I actually picked up my 9 year old FIRST, because I knew I wouldn't buy cigarettes if she was with me), came home, cleaned house, made dinner, and then came here.
*Whew*
What a great collection of inspiring words and images ,urging me to be my best self...and difficulties I can relate to, and idk...it just felt like HOME.
So even if I am struggling today...it is just ONE day. That's all I'm going to think about right now.
Thank you, everyone, for making this place what it is. xoxoxo
