I am now 115 days smokefree and having problems with cravings. This has been a sad week for me as two friends have passed away...both were smokers. I had already been having a case of the blues when I learned of their demise...the first one was on Monday when I logged onto her facebook page to wish her a happy birthday and saw the notes of condolences....learned she passed away in March and I didn't know so you can imagine the shock I felt. We had become friends when our hubbies were in the army together years ago and stayed in touch throughout the years although the lines of communication became less and less as the years went by...she lived in Mass. and I am in De. It seems she had cancer and suffered before she passed. Of course, I now wonder when was the last time we spoke or exchanged an e-mail. The other friend also had cancer and just died this past Wed. I went out yesterday for a few hours and my spirits lifted but today I am back down in the dumps. I think I am going to get some sugarless gum to chew on and find a way to get through this as I refuse to blow my quit even though I am sad....I already know smoking is not going to change anything and the sun will shine again. I really haven't felt much like talking to anyone but decided I needed to get on here and post for support. I have only two more weeks and I will be out of NML.. have already decided to reward myself with a new purse. Thank God for my quit buddy whom I confided in about how I am feeling. I know I got to get these thoughts out of my head and move on with my life. Right now I almost feel like I am back at the beginning which is a place I do not ever want to be again.
