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Closer to freedom-1

Francis
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So here I am, starting at the last 2 cigarettes I have left. So many thoughts going through my mind. I read again the book and I am ready to quit. No excuses this time. 

The anxiety before is always the same. The fear. Why?

there is absolutely nothing I enjoy or like about the slavery and that is more than clear. There is so much I hate about it, everything honestly. And yet there is so much fear of leaving the poison. The smell, the burning in my mouth, my throat. The burning money, along with my lungs. The shame of being seeing smoking, of being labeled, when people tell me I smell of smoke, my daughter telling me I'll die if I don't quit, the example in being to her. So much that I hate. Everything about it, and then smoking even more when someone tells me I need to quit.  Punishing them? What a stupid thought. 

Two left, and I cannot wait to be free. 

Keep me in your prayers an thoughts, and let's do this!!!

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