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I need to rant- not for sensitive people and maybe TMI

ginger34
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so as I sit here I have rant. just went through a tough craving. I sweat like hell sometimes during these cravings. whats up with that ???? I washed the dishes as I was sweating and my mind going crazy. I called my friend and we talked. I know my triggers so I was calling her about that. Last night she had texted me that a family was moving into my old house that my ex owns My ex is a sociopathic liar crack head who is just not right and i can't change him. Anyways i dont care so much about him renting out the old house its the fact that just two weeks ago in child support court he sat there lying to the judge about many thing about his income, hes a non stiop liar who then tries to get kids to lie and they do until the gulit overcomes them, they break down crying and gyess who gets to pick up the mess?????? The SOB pays $35.00 a week for each kid cuzz he is hiding income like he always told me he would. Anyways theres too much too write here concerning the ex and all the bs but what i wanted to say was I called my friend and my other old neighbors who always call me and told them "Look I know that you just sometimes want to rant about how bad the house looks now, sometimes youi are just pissed about all the partying, that the cops were there AGAIN and want to tell me and sometimes you just want to tell me whats going on over there and I know you don't do it wit malice but for my sake i just dont want to hear about my ex anymore. I just don't want to hear about it, i can't change him or the situation and it just really upsets me so please no more. " They understood, and it was good. Cuz you know it really pisses me off that that SOB is geting at least $1000 a month for that house, not reporting income and just snorting it up his god damned nose with no fGHHJJKKK thought for the kids needing money for school clothes, activities etc. What a selfish bastatrd that I can not change. Thank you for allowing me to vent like this, sorry if it was TMI and I will not write about this again. I just wanted to get it out and I think I did a good thing by calling my friends/ex nighbors telling them not to call me about him anymore. I can't change the situation and I find I get so frusrated about things I can't change. I think I did a good thing for my mental health and my smoking trigerrs. I am accepting things I can not change and I don't want to hear about them. LOL. Thanks for reading.

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