I wrote this a few months ago before i decided to quit
Dear ciggerette...
You have been a shitty friend...I give and give and in return I get nothing...worse than nothing...I get vile destructive crap from you. I hate you, I have always hated you...I hated you when I was a child and had to live with your toxic crap and had no choice. I hate that you have shortened my father's life and he will likely die a horrible painful death from you. I hate that you are so insignificant yet so important in my life. I hate that you exist...You and your type should be illegal. I hate you for pretending that you are "part of the fun" when really you are not. I hate that you are the first thing I think of every morning. I hate that you make me feel like an outcast. That because of you I feel less than good enough. I hate that you make me feel like a failure. I hate you for making me dependant on you. I think the people who are responsible for you should be jailed!! I hate that you killed my father in law. We have been friends for a long time, well I have been your friend, but I am telling you now, I hate you and I want you OUT of my life...f&ck you.
Yours Unfaithfully and utterly disgusted
Maura
