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In 1999, I was diagnosed with Bronchitis/COPD Excacerbation.. But I continued to smoke.....
Between 1994 and 2011, I have had three children, gotten married once, going through a divorce, having a long term relationship (13yrs) come to a brutal end, and went through a drug addiction, which I am now clean from, AND I have re-discovered myself as a spiritual person.
When I got pregnant I had no hard time quitting smoking, but it seemed that the stress after the baby came, and the strenuous relationship: Well, I continued to smoke......
Now, 2011- December 28th- I caught a cold, which two weeks later turned into a sinus infection, and a lleft ear infection, and that is when I went to the ER for some antibiotics... I continued to smoke.....
2 weeks of taking the ER antibiotics and I was not feeling better- I continued to smoke.....
Last week Monday January 24th, 2012- Went to work- I COULDN'T BREATHE FULLY INHALE/EXHALE- and I was bruising my insides with a dry hacking cough- my chest hurt. But, I continued to smoke.....
Tuesday- called in sick. I couldn't take it anymore- went to an urgent walk-in clinic-
Had a nebulizer treatment, and I WAS SCARED- for all I could remember was 1999 and the word COPD.
So, I decided to quit smoking, since the smoking didn't help me in getting better! DUH! And i also took a picture of myself with tears in eyes, which clearly had fear in them- DEATH. My youngest is only 2 1/2yrs old- WHAT AM I DOING???
The doctor came back- YOU HAVE BRONCHITIS WITH WHEEZING- YOU NEED TO QUIT SMOKING- AND AN X-RAY. So, I said, " Today I will quit." and he smiled at me and told me to stay home and come back in 3 days for a follow, since I was also on Prednisone to help open up my bronchial tues, so I can breathe a bit better.
I walked away with 3 prescriptions- and I came into my car, which of course smelled like cigarettes; and I turned to see my brand new pack of Marlboro menthols... Did I think twice? NO. Instead- I grabed the new pack and threw them under my car, ran them over, and went to my local pharmacy to get my medications.
I came home and my boyfriend was worried- I told him I quit smoking and I was scared....... He hugged me and lent me money to get my rx's. :)
Well, I also bought myself THE PATCH- 14mg daily dose. I'd figure that I would wean myself off from THE NICOTINE, but the desire to light one up had gone that day- UNTIL TODAY- December 28th, 2012- It is a Saturday, and I wasnt to sit outside and smoke a cigarette. WHY? I feel SO JUMPY. I also feel as if any small thing annoys me to the point where I just want to either cry my ass off or smoke a cigg.
Well, my b/f decided to take me out to lunch to distract me- IT WORKED. and then I went out to distrract myself at the mall and get my son a haircut. IT WORKED- but then I suddenly became hyper-sensitive to the surrounding sounds, that I just wanted to run out of there, which I kind of did lol....
Now, I am home,a nd found this website, I HOPE THIS WEBSITE HELPS ME IN SOME WAY TO STAY SMOKE-FREE.
Family First 691 days ago
welcome to the site, and congrats on your quit, sounds like you want to quit and you can, you will get a lot of good advice here, stay close.
lois 691 days ago
Congrats on your recent quit...at this point you must educate yourself about this addiction and all the mind games it will play on you......by reading, you will lose the anxiety and understand that smoking really only caused you MORE anxiety and harm.... hang in there and here are the links.....
Ex Nancy 691 days ago
welcome to the site. You already know you have to quit. The doctors keep telling you that. You sound like you are ready to quit. You have to work very hard no matter how bad the cravings get, scream at them and say NOOOOO
Do it while you can, while you STILL can. You will feel so amazing .
what is so shocking to me, is that you seem to have dates and practically times memorized. You KNOW in your heart its time to quit.
Stay on this site and read as much as you can. blog all the time. spend as much time here as you can.
I dont know girl, it seems like something has to click inside us that says this time is for real. YEAH its challenging at times, no one said it would be a piece of cake... but if you read the book Nancy posted to you, and get educated on why we smoke and why its so hard to quit, etc etc.. then you can move forward and do this.
Im sometimes shocked I was able to quit, I never wanted to quit, i knew I had to. But then slowly but surely I made myself absolutely hate cigarettes, and what they did to me.
I listened to the elders here, who have years behind them in their quit. I stayed positive and no matter what, dont smoke.
Thats all it takes, dont cave in. dont cheat, dont smoke.
not even one tiny puff.
You dont do that any more, remember?
You may not get this chance ever again.
Its no coincidence you are here, dont smoke, I know you can do this...
we all believe in you
TheNewMe (Jo) 691 days ago
this is my most recent blog, and my story..
TheNewMe (Jo) 691 days ago
Welcome. I add my voice to those telling you to read the info. It really helps a lot. When you have a craving just come here and blog with help as the title. We want to help. You must decide to never smoke no matter what happens and no matter how you feel.
katherinefriedrich 691 days ago
You have certainly come to the right place if you want support on quitting. you will find many friends here and many,many people who will help you with your quit. But the decision and the commitment must be yours.....stay close to the site any time or=f the day or night. If oyu think you are going to smoke----blog first and ask for help. Someone is usually on here no matter what time.
Welcome to EX----we are all here for each other.
Sootie quit November 15, 2009 691 days ago
You will help yourself by being here. But, you gotta be here somewhat.
MAIN RULE is
If you feel like you might smoke? post HELP! and wait for our responses.
Don't keep any around
No alcohol or such inhibition removers when you're around cigarettes.
jonescarp aka dale (1-2007) 691 days ago
ahh, glad you are here. you will see its safe here. These people here are one of the reasons that tomorow will be my 300th smokefree day with not even one single puff.
Marcie~ free since 4-4-11 691 days ago
Welcome I just joined, been smoking 28 + yrs. quit date Feb 14th. I've tried to quit many times. I know I'm going to need help. People who don't smoke can't help me, because they have never experienced this addiction. Only people who have gone thru this can.
Anthony A Morton 690 days ago
I was amazed at how positive reinforcement and comments I received from all of you guys, THANK YOU for welcoming me here and contuining to support me. I am sure I will be an inspiration to others, as you ALL HAVE BEEN TO ME.
p.s. I WILL DEFINITELY KEEP THE "HELP" ADVICE AND WAIT FOR A HELPING HAND.
Thank you all!
spiritgirl 690 days ago
I would definitely read that Allen Carr book- that one helped me a lot. Bottom line is that, one by one, he goes through the reasons why we smoke, and he destroys them one at a time. I always, for example, thought cigarettes help me think. After reading the book, I don't see it that way anymore. When you can't think of any reson to smoke it makes quitting a lot easier. Bottom line- keep coming to this site, tell people when you are struggling BEFORE you smoke, and educate yourself as much as possible. Best of luck an keep us posted!
Star 689 days ago
Well... the first step in anything is making a plan. Deciding to quit and executing that decision is the hardest. Since you quit so abrubtly, your mind is now going through withdraw. The good news is... it will take about 30 days or so to get through it. Some people will take longer, others won't take that long. After the first 30 days, the withdrawal symptoms will subside.
You need to identify what triggers your desire for nicotine. Then find a substitute for that trigger. This helped me tremendously. When I stopped... I used small amounts of chocolate and small bags of chips. You also need to identify why you stopped smoking. Keep this list with you at all times. If you get an overwhelming urge to smoke, pull this out and read it, use your list of substitutes for overcoming your trigger.
Now you may feel overwhelmingly stressed... doing some physical activity everyday will help to decrease your stress and helps with weight gain. Jogging or walking for 30 minutes really helps. If you can't do that, do some jumping jacks, or walk around the block for 10 minutes... what ever you decide, make it a priority to complete each day.
Everyone has stress in their lives. Just remember you can stay smoke free.
Dragulae 689 days ago
Thanks I will definitely use that ebook..
And I cant exercise now because I am waiting for my bronchitis to heal lol. But I will make a small list and keep it in my wallet.
spiritgirl 689 days ago
i quit today and i took sickof it nancy's advice in reading allen carr's book and going into the websights this one is awsome. feel your way around and chat with the members it really does help!!!! knowledge is power and understanding why you feel the anxiety greatly helps to relieve it. hang in ther and visit this sight often
donna b 689 days ago
I have been smoke free for 9 days and counting. The only really hard thing for me is that as a petite person, I have been stuffing my face to keep from smoking. I have read and read, but the problem for me is that the only thing that seems to get me through those cravings is M&M's or other not so healthy choices. How much weight is normal to gain? I have gained 6 lbs and I don't want to gain too much more, but I am NOT going to smoke!! Any suggestions are welcome as long as you don't say eat raw carrots, can't do it. I only seem to like crunchy unhealthy food; french bread with meat and cheeses, chips and salsa, etc....I am so glad there is actually a place we can really deal with the emotionalism of the quit. That seems to be pretty tough, but my kids are proud of me! Now, I have to save our cat from being burried by Ashly with the papers from the coffee table.
michelleneal 688 days ago
Noticed your posts when I joined this site this am. So, glad i found it, had been researching withdrawal symptons. Anyway, just read your story- and it was so interesting. I had a horrible sinus infection back in September, was so sick, yet continued to smoke. But now I am 4 1/2 days into a smoke free life once again. Hang in there, God doesn't give us more than we can handle. My favorite verse is :Be Still and Know that I am God" Psalm 46. Lisa
LA2012 688 days ago
Okay, so I am back. I logged on to this site a couple of years ago, with every intention of quitting. I failed miserably. I am planing my quit now. I have got to do it this time!! I will let you know my quit date. I really want to do it.. It's soooooo hard. I will be counting on you guys to help me thru this.
Jo 684 days ago
I read your comment just now, and you were absolutely right! I quit abruptly, and basically thre my family under the bus, without having the knowledge of what was to come... I lasted 7 days of not smoking then the weekend came..
I couldnt even do exercise to occupy my brain because I was still healing from it ad couldnt fully breath in or out..
I am smoking again been 5 days, and I read all of Allen Carrs book- AMAZING BOOK- filled me with the knowledge of what I needed to do. It is all in my head, and I have decided to quit the right way. NO SHOCK SYSTEM TO IT.
This weekend my teenagers and my boyfriend are going to make a plan for those HORRIBLE MENTAL PSYCHOTIC DAYS (lol)
And my quit date is FEBRUARY 10, 2012.
LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.
spiritgirl 684 days ago
I'm glad I read your post and I hope each day is truly more liberating for you. In fact, I pray that is the case for all of us. The anxiety and withdrawl seems to be similar with all of us-- but without sharing "what its like" some of us feel so crazy and alone.
Guess we're not alone... Crazy, maybe-- but that part can be fun if we turn it all around.
Here's to us!
Carolx 683 days ago
Mexico360 680 days ago
good job in quitting smoking, we all have different reasons why we have to quit. now we have to focus on coming clean all the way. I picked up a good tip reading something online if you crave to lit ipa cigg just shout from inside your head stop, it's gonna literally alter your thoughts of lighting up a cigg, then immediately replace your thoughts with pictures of reasons why you stopped smoking.
firstname.lastname@example.org 672 days ago
Glad to to hear good news about you. Keep up and don't thing about going back to smoking
aaziz 658 days ago
I can relate to almost all of your case, Same diagnosis. I still smoked after being diagnosed 28yrs ago with Chronic Bronchitis, which after I turned 30 they diagnosed me with asthma and I have been still smokinh faithfully with no regards to my lungs or life, January I had a PFT and the Pulmonary specialist says you dont have asthma, he says all your sypmtoms came after I had been smoking for years, so I have had COPD for 32yrs, now Im serious about quiting. You are strong spirited and I admire your courage and determination. My 12yr old says mommie it scares me to here you cough all night so, I have to live so I owe it to her to see me be strong enough to muster the courage to let this old flame go. We will defeat this nasty life stealer.
GETTN BACK TO LIFE 657 days ago