[Disclaimer: Fairly graphic and detailed description of the back of my throat. Ew. Yet inspirational?]
I was brushing my teeth tonight, and when I spit out the toothpaste there was red. Not just a little "bleeding gums" red... I'm talking RED. So I rinse and spit and check my teeth and floss and spit and spit and spit and there is still blood. So I think to myself, "Self, what did you last eat? A red piece of candy? Beets? Did you just have a bloody nose?" No, no, and no. I had been drinking water for a while, but hadn't eaten anything for a few hours. Finally I had my mom peer into my mouth with a flashlight. Then I looked too. Oh wish I hadn't done that. My tonsil is bleeding... and although I want to delve into every little detail of the nasty sight I saw that is now burned into my head, and that is severely grossing me out because that is stuck in the back of MY THROAT, I'll spare you all. Basically, it is bleeding, swollen, sore, and I am a wee bit freaked out. Ok, a little more than a wee bit. I started crying, which is not something I do in front of my parents, and have eaten a few lozenges and have gargled with salt water. It has been hurting for about three days now, but this is the first time I've noticed blood.
Ok, so what is my whole point to this???
I honestly truly think that it is due to a cold. Or maybe, a flu. I don't want to think that smoking could have caused this, but I am scared because I don't know. I am glad I've quit smoking (although it was just yesterday.... I can't believe I smoked while my throat hurt and would be scared to do so now). I guess I am just sharing this because I am really freaked out and am clinging to this as the best reason I have had so far to stop smoking. I am really praying it isn't something too serious. The nearest hospital is a good 3 hours away, and of course, any clinics wouldn't be open until Monday.
So.... Let's just think of it this way..... Cigarettes are bad, they make things worse, they MIGHT make your throat bleed or you might get hairy toes or your yard might get infested with llamas. Whatever keeps you from smoking, lets count on it :]
