It's been too long since I've been here. I've really been struggling with my quit since starting my new job, but I am holding strong still. But damn! I had a good half hour last night, after a long work week, where I couldnt think of anything else. I was happy to be with two friends who are new(er) to their quit - I didn't stay long though, because I noticed that they had two packs of cigs on their counter. So, I knew that they were not fully committed at this point. I am happy to see them quit for 2 weeks, and I was like 'THROW THOSE AWAY. NOW!' I was just too tired and distracted to enjoy myself after seeing those cigs. I knew I didn't want one, I knew I didnt need them, but the ugly addiction reared its head and I felt irritable and in need of escape.
I know I can't go back - I WILL NOT GO BACK. It's such an ugly thing, the smoking, the energy and time wasted. So, I knew I needed to come back here, and to refocus myself so that I maintain my quit. My work schedule is busy, but I am going to find a few minutes again in the day to stop by here and remain connected to all of you wonderful beautiful quiters!
April 7 will be 3 mos, and I"m counting down. NOPE.
