the Second Day

[penni]

so ... yesterday, i almost melted down at work because my boss intimidates the sh*t out of me and i am TRYING REALLY HARD HERE, MISTER!  random things like that whirled through my head at about 100 mph, among other pithy and pointed comments.

i did NOT pick up.

last night, my psychology class had a test and then he ran long in his lecture, typical, so i didn't leave school until 10pm.  i'll be honest right now:  if i had a pack in my car, i would have definitely picked up.

WHICH IS WHY THEY SUGGEST YOU CLEAN OUT YOUR CAR REALLY WELL, PEOPLE!!

nothing in my car, nothing in my house.  sure, my son's cigs are probably laying around, but like the good "top shelf" alcoholic i am, i will not smoke something i don't like.  seriously, that's how sick i am.

but also - hey, i'm a NON-SMOKER so i'm not going to smoke anything ANYWAY.

mom's PET scan is today and her MRI of the brain, tomorrow.  (she has lung cancer.  she smoked for 49 years, quit 4 years ago because of a little respiratory failure issue she had and that whole "ventilator" thing for 9 days made her a changed woman, but apparently, the damage was done.)

i apologize for being a little ranty and rambly today.  i am 47 years old.  my mom smoked for 2 years long than my given age.  

for all that is holy, i want to remain a non-smoker.