71 days, I just read Jim's post and am so greatful to him and so many others on here. I am learning that this "quit" is really a life change that takes time. I sometimes feel like and sometimes hear from others that I should be over it by now. I'm not. I'm working on it. The difference is, I am paying attention and I now have the tools to soothe the junkie. And I don't know if those feelings will ever get better or go away. hwc ( the biggest influence in my quit) says that it does. I'm taking his word for it and waiting...I know that if that doesn't happen for me that way, then it's ok. I have the want and the tools to protect my precious quit. But that is where I am in MY process. I accept it because with everything I am NOT smoking. I choose everyday NOT to smoke. Here's a story for you...
My friend who got me that job with that "spanx woman" who in general is a great friend and person but is a bit cockey and always "in charge" of whatever he does...worked that job. Went to the wedding and dressed her for 4 days. I saw him on Monday. He was so excited...he saw a bunch of stars at the wedding and partied with everyone and had "the best week of his life" He turned to me and said " I smoked 2 cigarettes I was so F***** up, I didn't even remember smoking them I am a non smoker!" He quit in February of this year...he is smoking again.....
His quit appeared to be so easy. He was one of the people who supported me in the beginning and looked at me funny when I said that I would like to smoke a cigarette after 3 weeks of my quit. What does all this mean? It tells me that I am through with smoking. I don't want to join my friends that fail (I have 3 more that tried and are smoking again) I feel bad for him. He failed. He didn't care about his quit. He didn't listen to me when I said never again not even one puff! It's funny how in life we do the choosing. It's easy you just go one way or the other. We are success stories. All of us. On here fighting for our precious quits.Being inspirations and heros to each other...If everyone, smokers and non, could live with inspiration and heros instead of envy and enemies maybe the world would be a bit better...
Everybody have a peaceful day and if you can't...have some peaceful moments!
All my best,
Stephen
