Hi Everyone,
Well I blew it and smoked. But I am doing good again. I have no excuses. I just caved. But I will tell you that if you think you can have just one once in a while. YOU CAN NOT. Because you will go through all the withdrawals all over again. You will be cranky, and irritable, you will be emotional. It's crazy.
I am now 5 days smoke free again, and feeling better. I made it all the way to the 13th day and then caved. Please help me not to have it happen again.
I know that people will be disappointed in me. But I am human, and I am determined to beat this thing. I did it before I can do it again.
At least now I am feeling strong again. I hope you guys don't give up on me. I refuse to give up on myself.
Oh here is a good thing to do. There is girl that I work with who smokes. Well I never smelled her before and I did yesterday. YUCK!!! Well I thought, God, that's how I smelled. Then I remembered that I had a jacket in my car that smells like cigarettes. Well every time I start to feel weak again, I smell the jacket and remind myself that I do NOT want to smell like that.
Sorry I was so out of touch, I was just very ashamed of myself for giving in to the cravings.
Hugs to all, keep up the good fight. Terri
