My old friend the coffin nail left me with a gift I cannot return. You know who I am the minute I open my mouth. My voice lets the world know that I have been a long time smoker. Does that ever go away I wonder.
I am certain I need a doc so maybe that will be next (on a long list of neglected ailments). Started innocently enough-I dont even remember when but I do remember my kids telling me "You sound just like grandma" when they were little.
Shit you mean I sound like that? Her voice was quite raspy and I never really gave it a second thought (wish I had quit back then)
Now I would not even mind having that voice!! My voice is soo raspy I lost the ability to:
1. Yell at people (really miss that-especially at the kids when they are being aholes)
2. Singing (not that I was very good at it but at least sound came out)
3. Not be judged by my voice (No I am not trash-and boy did they judge me when barely a whisper would come out as I asked for my parliaments at the store)
4. Being able to order at the deli counter (yup I have actually had to prethink what I want and write it down on paper to give to them-one guy actually said to me"gee lady this list isnt so long- you could have just told me"-Then I opened my mouth and tried to speak-he got it)
5. Remain anonymous- everybody knows its me as soon as they hear my voice. In real estate some stupid people thought it was sexy- IT IS NOT SEXY TO ME!!!
And finally------ I am sick of telling people (actually not speaking but putting 2 fingers to my lips) that I am not sick and their wishes of me "feeling better" will not come true (one lady at the store said "wow you have had laryngitis all winter") NOPE MY FRIEND THE NAIL COFFIN GAVE ME A GIFT I CANNOT GIVE BACK!!!
