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Two Weeks Smokefree

DimArtist
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Hey everyone, I haven't been updating my blog because I wanted to share some good news instead of whining and saying that I can't. The good news is that I am smokefree for two weeks. I made it. It's something good, I guess. The bad thing is that I am having a bad time. My life is in shambles, I am unemployed, I had a fight with a friend and our relationship was mutually terminated after years, I had a ticket for no freaking reason and generally things are definitely not great. Can I maintain it? I guess. These two weeks every single day I wanted to smoke to relieve my addiction. And I will want to smoke tomorrow. But there are many times that I keep forgetting about smoking. I am not thinking about it. It's freezing outside and I do not want to get out and have a cig but at the same time I am jealous of people that are smoking. You know, it will sound stupid but I have enemies in my life. I think that I have some enemies but I do not want to see my enemies happy. I am not gonna do a favor to them and see me suffering. And smoking will make them happy. They want me to suffer but I am not gonna let them. I wish my life was better. Of course there are people who are starving, who are homeless and some of you have some serious issues like medical but my morale is low. I do not think I am worthy. And I am terrified of the future and if I can maintain being smokefree. So, anyway. That's my news and I hope everyone who is reading this even someone who is in his first day and think that two weeks is an achievement, you can do it and you can do it in a better and more fancy way than I did. Thanks again for your support and your comments.

P.S. Sorry for my English.

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